真的一年了。

不大喜欢离开家前房间空空的感觉
这种感觉太寂寞
把所有喜欢的东西都挤进背包里
留下来的却是一种孤独
更害怕在机场的道别
然后一个人在飞机上掉泪
这种事情太不陌生

说不上何时会回来
此时，不好受。

我爱美禄

难得大半夜停电，干脆坐在窗前享受黑夜与宁静
习惯收集入场券，音乐会门票，或是一切有纪念价值的有的没的
难得拿出来回味，看着都会开心地笑
戴起耳机，整个世界就属于我
那些渐渐忘掉的记忆和失去的信心回来了
还有朋友鼓励的卡片
叫我每天都要开心
对咯，过去的让它过去 
我很珍惜，简单却最有意义

原来我很幸福。
整个世界都安静了，哈，停电真好。

everybody has a summer holiday

and here is mine :)

ate some books this summer

get a volunteer tag for georgetown festival
phhhailed to get an organiser tag again this year lol 

   

tune into youtube, plug in headset
and learn how to pick the strings

guitar sounds amazingly calming all the time
when you need it, it always does.

the half-way pageant thing LOL!!!
quit before the grand final after much consideration
did it like a boss HAH

a spontaneous jungle trekking
with hungry stomach growling all the way
grateful that we're blessed with wide peace scenery, after 1hour+ trekking
without choosing the boat, we chose our foot as way going back
it rained,
we're waiting helplessly in the mid of jungle.
proud that we're still able to laugh at our achievement, even though get all wet in the end

cari makan by bikes
long cycling way along penang coastal
bright sunny morning, busy streets, got honked by carss
thanks to our adventurousness, we get tanned and get wet
as it rained, again
well, soul fulled, stomach fulled
things to do: cycle around penang, ticked!

watching life in kopitiam
simple pleasure

grabbed some syphonised coffee
hidden gem on the isle with friendly owner 
meaningful evening spent very relaxedly, listened to stories

I'm charged and ready to go again, as an explorer

new semester awaiting,
I will be walking down a different way, taking different routes than most
that I understand it won't ever be easy
still, keen to find out what awaits and where will it leads me to
a new phase with real world real competition

well,
resilience without regret.

老了会骄傲的事.

So, I always have so much fun reviewing all the following photos
 the experiences and reminiscenes cross my mind all the time

The extraordinary activities,

something that remind me to keep going and take charge in everypart of life

lets start with the very first one

parajump in sentosa, five storeys in height

pioneer that kicks off the followings

GMax in clarke quay, singaville
reverse bungy
reaches 60m in the air, speed up to 200km/h 
well, we're just keep laughing up there in the air
also, not forgetting to check in at sky lol

drained jetski in penang (LOL!)
I'm not a water baby, can't swim
so just floated, wanted to cry and waiting for the rescue

one day co-pilot in KL
dream of handling an airplane, fulfilled!

controlled this Cessna150 up to 1000 feet in the air
an simple manual aircraft
I was excited but also scared, seriously 
can't find the airport to land in the air really makes my nerves stood

skywalk at Macau tower

walking on top of a tower of 233 metres high while doing stunt lol
the world's highest bungee jumping happens at the same place
and and I can see China and the whole Macau up there :)

GX5 extreme swing in singaville
expect the unexpected!

free fall from 50m in the air
I am so soooo afraid of free fall honestly
goosebumps everytime watching the video, everytime

caught our relieved smile hah!

parasailing at penang

screamed like nobody and fell onto the sand
dragged by boat on the beach, eating sand LOL

well, there're much more things in life that makes me happy
or proud at who I am
the rush of adrenaline did makes me scared sometimes
but to conquer the fear is something, encouraging I would say

slowly gaining pieces and pieces of life puzzles
as every experiences is amazingly unique
and there's one saying that you will think differently when you've done one
like when there's bottleneck in things, what's in priority list, what's matter the most
I can't assure the validity of this statement but I'm not regretting on any, at all

much more things to be done
much more things to be learnt
much more things to be experienced
in any, every aspect of life 
well, I am just a beginner in life
but I am definitely keen to find out what awaits me in my near tomorrows :)

慢慢阅读，慢慢咀嚼，好吗

最近开始有时间关心身边的细节
路上的路人，金头发的背包客，咖啡店的阿伯等等
从前就有的重感情，最近开始有新的领悟
常常听到亲戚说起谁谁常常往谁谁的家里跑
为的是找一个聊天的伴， 打发的是放工后空房子里一个人的寂静
看到坐在咖啡店的阿伯，点了一人份的煮炒，圆桌上一个人的晚餐
看起来是那里的熟客，熟悉了自己一个人的熟客
还有那个推着老脚车， 站在围墙前静静看海的老人
我很好奇他那时在思维着什么，或许是一些过去的往事回忆
另一边是两个金头发的背包客，互相有个伴，轻轻地牵着手走看分享每个角落的新奇
我被这一幕幕牵动着,心理上的涟漪不断发起

到底要多少努力才能够找得到那个能够分享的伴，
那个可以放工后想回家看到的人，那个可以每天陪你吃晚餐分享一整天的兴奋或不满的人，
那个可以陪你一起静静看海回忆当年的人，那个可以和你一起有时间就到陌生的国度体验的人
我说的是二十年三十年后，中年以后，甚至退休以后
或许不该说是“努力”，应该可以说是珍惜
只是这些不起眼的生活小细节，对一些阿伯来说是多么奢侈，真的

人说，想要得到，就要思考你该放弃的
想要家庭的安稳，幸福的过每一天？
挣扎于过于极端的金钱机会成就与完全相反的时间亲情温暖状况之间
牺牲？
成功的定义到底是什么，对个人而言，不是普遍大众的定义
或许这样吧，当一个人达到所谓的成就成功后， 是否会有个可以与他分享喜悦的人
若不，值得？
朋友也会各自有自己的生活，自己的家，
孩子长大后也会有自己的世界，现实
所以到头来，自己的伴还是最真实吧
‘另一半’真的就是这样吧
灵魂的伴侣

也不是说放弃所有只为亲情
只是平衡点很重要，对就是这个词
“平衡”
多些关心，陪伴 ，体谅，分享，了解
更重要的应该就是感恩和珍惜
心灵上的满足，心灵上的幸福和充实
应该远远胜于物质上太多太多的占有吧
因为真的不会有谁说的准明天会发生什么

也没什么，每个人都有自己的故事
只是最近这种想法一直不断地在反复反复着
至少我知道的，
我很幸福，我的家人很幸福。